This is NOT an emo post =)

Sometimes, i tell myself, if i am able to undo my mistakes, to amend the stupid and ugly words that came out of my mouth....to have a chance for another detour of my 18 years of life, THEN I WILL DEFINITELY BE LIVING WITH NO REGRETS now. 
But then, you came upon, you asked me...
" are you ready to let go of the things you have now?"
" are you willing to  forgo the things you have now?"
Yes. I'm living with regrets now. That's for sure. I've lost something valuable in my past. And all this while  i wished hard so  that i could return to the past and clinch to them, hold on to them, just for the sake of deceiving myself  that they won't leave me ever again.. and i would never lost them ever again. Foolish me...
But now things changed, is it really because time does change everything? You tell me. I've no idea. 

But.... I can't. I really can't afford to lose anything , anymore. not now. NOT EVER.

And then i realized you were right.. you were the wise one. You were the one that knows me the best.
I can't look back and keep on regretting on every steps i took, I can't lock myself inside a box full of regrets. I can't wake up every morning with the words " WHAT IF " in my mind ... I can't. I wouldn't be happy this way, I would only be hesitating, wondering, and worrying each moment , this is so wrong.. so tormenting. FmL. 
I must change my perception, again. So what you'r living with regrets? Everyone live with regrets, and i'm not the only one in this earth, i'm not alone. By the end of this post, I'm certain that i will still have the thoughts of returning back to the past, but then, i'm certain also, I WILL DEFINITELY REGRET on it. 
It's true that people can't predict the future, but we can plan for the future.
I guess improving on my life now is the best i could do to get rids of my regrets one by one at a time. =) cheers.

To prove to you that this is not an emo post..LOL see i can smile!

Ps. This pic was actually taken last month LOL. sorry !  dont forget to cheers~

i lost my banking virginity!

Okayyyhhh..  I have a confession to make : I just created a bank account last month for the very first time of my life, and i never knew ATM machine is only eligible for withdrawal of money and other functions. FML man! noob!i know T^T ....so just now i tagged along daddy to feed his four legged creature pet with processed fossil fuel . (to pump petrol in case you don't know what the hell am i talking about) -.- alien language. And the main story is this :
After the four legged creature is well fed, daddy wanted to withdraw his money at public bank, but then he said " alamak, parked too far away from public bank, never mind, let's go to your cimb bank first ( oh hell yeah, i wished cimb bank is MINEEEEEEEE..no way!) " walk walk walk, we went inside the bank
I tugged daddy sleeve : "pa...i need to deposit my saving.."
Dad with weird expression : "so ? go ahead ...i'll wait for you"
Me with disappointed face : " I need you to teach me....=(.."
Dad with strict expression : " Stand here...."
So i stand behind a chinese aunty and another malay uncle.
2mins later...my heart

what a day -............-

( 5.45pm) 
Today is one of the days that i feel like banging my head real hard on the wall -.-. Seriously, what the hell is wrong with me, there's few moments today that i behaved utterly stupid, like my human brain has stopped functioning! i'm starting to suspect whether I'm actually possessing a chicken brain that has malfunction!
You know when chickens are terrified ,scared and shocked, they just run around crazily, crushing to everything that is blocking it's way. hell yeah. That's how i felt today since last night till today =( , i guess the bad luck demon and moodiness devil wouldn't just let go of me unless i start to worship them like what lady gaga did (lol, that was what i heard from people la, rumors rumors LOL), then i will be famous and magnificent like her lol . Anyway, i think the black atmosphere do drag down to the next day, and the line " tomorrow will be a better day" is not helping me at all. sucks.


(7.52pm)
YOU ARE TO BE BLAME FOR EVERYTHING TODAY...YOU WERE THE TROUBLE MAKER..YOU WERE THE CAUSE, SO SOLVE IT NOW,BE RESPONSIBLE!.agree eh?
Sorry for making yourself emo kay wern, sorry for feeling pity on yourself kay wern, sorry for posing such crappy post people...and sorry for making yourself looking miserable to others. sorry sorry sorry...Super junior LOL. Ah craps! What the hell am i thinking now..anyway,i feel much better now,because of someone speciallllll... ehhh, check this out! damn nice LOL, it was just released yesterday ! yeay!

I think horrr....the mermaid tail is stunning! and and noticed that small boy sitting on the piano? He is Lady gaga right?? right? he must be lady gaga what! lol...anyway , damn confusing la this mv haha ( every mv of hers are confusing actually LOL)


And...........i found a new medicine to cure my "perasan " disease LOL. webcam ! =p muchhhh more easier to take picture, much more faster to upload to pc -.- wait, it no need to upload to pc also. aiyahh! Conclusion is that webcam is so sap sap sui when it comes to taking perasan pics. But.....it's shitty blur ( my laptop not geng  one, what can do )-.-

smile to warm up first

lame 1

lame 2

lame 3

no lame! peace!

I have a damn chubby face, FML. and a chubby body. FMLx10000000000000000 tata!

late night

If you stay up late night just to play games or facebook, then i feel extremely sorry for you. * daddy last sentence before he slammed the door* sigh, goodnight dad...

 

Apparently, that was the status i update in FB few minutes ago.

Sigh, dad is right, shouldn't have sacrificing my sleep to online ( for unnecessary things), FML. I still have assignments waiting for me to kick their ass but i yet to do so, hell that i have not even warmed up my muscles to kick the assignment's ass. 

MISS KAY WERN......

kay wern............

kay wern...

come and kick my ass , you lazy bum!

I heard the assignment calling me...playing with my mind...

Am i going cuckoo? argh!

Gotta end this quick post..moody now =( Nights............

Baskin Robbins +Dry Ice = Birthday Celebration

I don't know how the hell the above equation was derived. LOL. Anyway, the previous Sunday was my beloved aunt birthday,since she wasn't at home for the whole weekend ( went for vacation ), so, basically, we didn't plan to celebrate her birthday.

Anyhow, aunt was back surprisingly earlier (around 9pm), cousin decided to buy cake for her mummy so she called her bf to buy one before returning home.

Turns out...

Secret Recipe was out of cake -.-

then the fastest yet pricey solution was

Baskin Robbins OreoCookie Cake

WARNING!!!

The price of the cake is capable of  forming a horrible black hole in your packet, swallowing every single pennies without mercy.

Friendly Reminder :If you opt to buy BR cake for birthday celebration of anyone you treasure,DO DO DO find "partners", you know, it works exactly the same like partners in business. In this case it is called [ partners for cake], except for that you and your partners won't get any interests or benefits in the cake "investment" business BUT more holes in your pocket. -.-

 Hmmm...where are we again, * scroll up my screen*

Lol..okay,continue, we sang birthday song , cut the cake, ate the cake. THE END. 

The Birthday Girl, i mean woman =p

see the box super nice laaa

                                      

NOooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! wait, it didn't just end like this =(

When we were enjoying the cake * munch munch* my cousin peeked into the cake box ( damn nice la the box i tell you, i think the box increased the cake price ( perhaps rm10) since it's so damn niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee LOL ).But he saw NOTHING! NOTHING inside at all. -.- 

Was kidding again, there was actually a few cubes of dry ice!

(i think the dry ice also add extra cost to the cake price )

Anyway, yeay!!!!Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! DRY ICE!! YO yo yo! DRY ICE IS IN THE HOUSE babe ! -.- so damn excited when we saw the dry ice. You know i know, for normal people like us,the ratio of  dry ice cubes to ice cubes appearing in your house is like 1:1000000000 , i mean DRY ICE is so damn rare!lol unless you buy it on purpose laaa...but for what?! RIGHT?

Of course, we did make " full use" of the dry ice by...

Throwing the dry ice cubes into the toilet bowl -....- I feel so disgusting now LOL

So, yeah,that was how we made used of the dry ice. -.- We used it to entertain ourselves in order to satisfy our lunatic mind -..-

Oh yeah, do remember that before cutting the BR cake, you must first dip the plastic knife into hot water cause if you don't, you'll be cursing the cake ( first layer is solid ice cream ) for being hard like hell and the knife for being blunt like hell. LOL. That was what happened to us, lol, consequences of not reading instructions stated on the cake box. -.-

Hmm..if you are wondering how's the taste? i say 6.8/10 . =)

Oh yeah again! I'm going to reward myself something niceeeeeeeee for officially surviving this tormenting world for 18years in a few more daysssssssssssss =D *excited*

Will reveal in next post! buahahahha!

My lovely friend! =D

 

Facts
1 : She is NOT my friend -.- ( cause she is my sis la..... )
2 : She is  5years + 60months + 156weeks + 428days +  890hours + 697minutes + 543seconds-
     OLD .  ( test your maths! =D )
3 : I dislike her ( because she has sharper nose and smaller face structure ) LOL lol LOL!
4 : I envy her ( because she is smarter and younger than me) Lol LOL Lol
5 : I wanna slap her ( because she is so much thinner than me )wtf, i never hit people  
     unnecessarily one-.-
6 : She smiles and admire herself in front of the mirror every time she enters the room
    (okay, that was me actually ) LOL lol LOL
7 : She can take ONE WHOLE HOUR to pack her school bag  -.- serious
8 : She thinks she is FAT -.- *  if she is fat, then i will be super OBESE and FAT -.- damn
9 : She always offer me snacks but never want to open the snacks pack. wtf.
10 : She is cute. ( I am cuter! ) LOL
11 : She is lovable & adorable ( me too! ) LOL
13 : She is 400km away from me now.
14 : I miss her >.< shy shy wtf
15 : Hope she will do well in her PMR
16 : She will be touched when she reads this! hahahahahah
17 : Answer for fact no.2 ( 15 years old ) the equation was wrong! I simply made it up! 
    buahahahahahhaha, don't curse me please -.-

Who says I'm not scared? Ftw, guess what????!!! I AM SCARED!=(

 SIX!!!!! i repeat , it's SIXXXXXXX hours before entering the hall of dooms. ( exam hall ) LOL!

So here is what happened :

Xy : Kay Wern, you seems damn relax la.......envy..

Me : ....................... ( illusion la u having )

Xy : Why? You look so moody one today?

Me : ........................(  I'm worried and scared, not MOODY, use your brain to think la )

Xy : Finished doing your revision huh?

Me : ........................( I really don't feel like answering you)

Xy : OOiii, answer me la, finished dy or not?

Me :.........................( None of your business, Stop throwing me anymore questions)

Xy : So, you think you can scores?

Me :........................( If i answer yes, you r gonna think i'm ego righhhhhhhht??)

Xy : Aiya, see your face also know u can score one..

Me: ........................(wtf? did i answer you? you can read my mind one is it?)

Xy : How to solve this Question????

Me:.........................( Can i choose not to answer you? My mind is like a piece of clean white sheet now -..-)

Xy : You seems annoyed =(

Me : ........................( hallo? are you blind? yes i'm so annoyed, BY YOU )

Xy :I think i better go now......

Me : ........................( yesssss! go far far away from me before i smack your head)

Xy went to somewhere far far far..................................away, and never comes back  LOL, she did actually =..=

Arghhh, I'm freaking out now, damn ,can i puke now? Idk is it me or you too have the habit or throwing up when you get freaked out or nervous? sometimes i even get stomachache -..- i think that's common righhhhhhht? But honestly, if you ever get nearby me before any major exam and start asking me this and that, FTW, I swear i'm gonna slap you or even bite you , i will get annoyed -.- so sorrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy XY =( should have warned you earlier. 

LEAVING

Yes, i'm leaving. But where to? 
MELAKA
After 112 months of life in ipoh, i'm finally moving back to melaka, sweet sweet hometown.Part of me is extremely eager to move back as i'm really looking forward to explore melaka.* it changed a lot since the day i start my life in ipoh* but there is so many questions lingering in my mind now. sigh. will i be happy with my new environment? will i lose my friends in ipoh that had been through thick and thin with me? can i adapt myself at there? WILL I MISS IPOH? sigh...=(
Oh yeah, i'll definitely gonna miss ipoh T.T after all i spent more than half of my life (till now la) in ipoh =.= surely there will be little little memories mah. 
SIGH 1 : NO MORE walking distance food for me. * my house is extremely near to restaurant and when ever mummy don't feel like cooking, TAPAO is the solution or we'll walk to restaurant together.no car.no petrol. safe money! safe earth! =D*
SIGH 2 : NO MORE penang,cameron,pangkor,lumut,........ conclusion : no more travelling to north region -.- * melaka is like wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy back at southern region. to travel to penang i'll have to FLY to there, driving will have EATEN HALF OF YOUR DAY
SIGH 3 : NO MORE cantonese . Okay, i'm still noo in canto but at least i know little bit. back to melaka i'll have to learn HOkKIEN which is a dialect that'll make my mind explode.


                                                                                              to be continue........=D tata~